Below is some of the correspondence we have had with Anna over the weeks and months, unedited. There is some repetition.

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When the war started, I was in great despair. Left without a job, a small child, disabled parents. My husband also did not work for a long time because of the war, now there is a part-time job. But this money is very small and not enough for everyone. Jobs are hard to find now. We rent an apartment and we have to pay for it.

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Food, medicine, hygiene products, everything is very expensive now. I applied to charitable organizations in my city, but, unfortunately, they cannot help everyone. We had a difficult financial situation even before the war. There are debts and loans. And the war worsened the situation even more. That's why I started writing to people and asking for help. But since no one really believed me and did not answer, I deleted the appeal in the correspondence.

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At first I was looking for help in moving to another country and financial support. But unfortunately, after thinking it over, I understand that I cannot physically and financially travel with a child to another country. Then I was looking for at least some financial help, but I understood that hardly anyone would help a stranger.

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Thank you very much for your suggestions. I will do my best. I have health problems due to constant worry and stress. And recently I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling sick, having a panic attack and my body not listening to me well. I thought I was dying and asked God not to take me away. But after a while it got better. That's why I should worry less...

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At the beginning of the war, everyone who could leave, and now they are leaving as far as possible. But I have a small child, 3 years old. There is no financial opportunity to leave and support yourself and the child somewhere in another country. Do not count on the help of another country. Will I be able to arrange a child in a kindergarten and whether he wants to go there. There are doubts. It depends on whether the child attends kindergarten, whether I can find a job or not. The husband will not be released to another country because of the war. Also, I can’t leave my disabled parents, they physically won’t be able to go and don’t even want to.

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I do not receive social payments from the state. I have a child (3 years old) and parents of disabled people of 1 and 3 disability groups. Money is needed to pay for housing (rented), food, hygiene products, going to the doctor for a child, medicine for parents, paying loans. It is very embarrassing to apply, but now there is no way out. We will be very grateful for any help.

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Since February 24, we have been in a constant state of anxiety, unfortunately ... it’s scary, it hurts my soul, I don’t have the strength to live in anticipation of what will happen next and how long this war will last. But you have to hold on! Peace and God bless you 

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But every day there are alarms about danger 3-7 times. Sometimes rockets fly by.

 

We walk down the street and hear the planes flying. Unfortunately, there is no safe city in Ukraine, there is danger everywhere.  It's scary... I want to live in peace... My relatives from Kyiv moved to our city. The relatives packed a small bag and left in their car. The road was difficult for them. A tank was driving towards them from afar. It's good that he was still far away and they turned the other way... One of my relatives is still in Kyiv, and recently rockets arrived in Kyiv... My friend (a woman) ran away with the children from Mariupol, their journey was two days, it's just hell there. Thank God they escaped safely to another, safer city.

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Hello. Sorry, I didn’t answer, because we didn’t have electricity for a long time( 

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Forgive me for being a bit shy. I am very ashamed that we have such a situation now. And what to ask for help. I feel like a failure. One woman, whom I asked for help, said that I should be ashamed to ask for help.

 

After that, I cried a lot and withdrew into myself. She didn’t know anything about my life at all, didn’t know about my problems, about what I had to go through in my life. She doesn't live in Ukraine and doesn't know what we're all worried about here. After all, the war is going on throughout Ukraine, it can be dangerous everywhere. When alarms come in, especially at night. I kiss my sleeping son and pray very much that everything will be fine. Missiles can hit anywhere. But, unfortunately, this girl did not understand this.

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Sorry for being so closed off. But I'm afraid to trust people, I don't want to hear condemnation, and morally it's very difficult. And there are a lot of scammers now, so I don’t want to publish personal information about myself and my family on social networks, even names.

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In general, to be honest, I was very embarrassed and ashamed that somewhere there was a publication about our position and situation. I only tuned in to this because it's anonymous. But I tell the truth, we are now very hard morally and financially.

 

Every time someone sends help to us, I'm just moved to tears  Thank you to some wonderful people for supporting us and empathizing with our situation in life now. And thank you from the bottom of my heart for every help

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My conscience does not allow me to ask for further donations. I'm already very embarrassed, but I'm grateful for helping our family. 

 

... And while everyone is discussing that Johnny Depp won the trial, in Ukraine every day in different cities children are killed, brutally murdered, their little bodies raped, sometimes to death. Civilians are shot. Entire cities are wiped off the face of the earth. Russians spoil people's fates, leave Ukrainians homeless, kill their relatives and loved ones... These beasts seize our territories and force people to take Russian citizenship, rob apartments and houses of people to the bone. They send the stolen items to their wives and relatives, who are not shy about using what is stained with the blood of innocents... In some cities such atrocities have also taken place, such as in Bucha, but they have not been shown on the news.

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Sorry, I'm not very sociable... I'm very upset  I took my mother for examinations, they found two formations in her... the doctor said that the situation was not good. Have nominated a biopsy, analyzes and other inspections. From Monday I will take my mother for tests.  I can help my mom. I pray and ask the Lord to heal my mother

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Today I was busy looking for clinics where I can do tests and examinations for my mother. On Monday I will take my mother for tests, then there will be a visit to the doctor and further examinations on the recommendation of the doctor. Many thanks to all of you for your support!

 

this is a big blow for me, for mom and for everyone. But I really hope that these foreign formations in the body can be eliminated by a course of treatment. I pray strongly. To be honest, my mother has only one hope for me, that I will help her. I really want to help her

 

And my translation into English (Sometimes I translate 3 times to make it sound like I really want to say.

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Many thanks to the wonderful H for her kind heart. It doesn't matter that it's a small amount, it's important that this person shared it from the bottom of his heart to help us. For me, every help is a piece of soul and care. Thanks a lot.

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Thanks for the link. I called the Red Cross earlier, but unfortunately they refused to help. They help internally displaced people (refugees). Unfortunately, they cannot help everyone. We do not fall into the category of help. My friend from Mariupol (although she is from a city that has been occupied and destroyed), has not even received help yet, since there are a lot of people who need help in Ukraine (

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Today is a very busy and stressful day. I take my mother to the hospital to see a doctor. Probably today will do or make surveys-a biopsy, but precisely I do not know today or in other day.  Thank you very much for your understanding and support. We wouldn't have made it without you.

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I'm mentally broken But I have to hang on. It's going to be okay, I really hope so.

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Thank you  for supporting my family. Believe me, my real friends are family and relatives... I don't have any close friends now. I'm disappointed in friendship.

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I'm not angry, I just feel devastated and in great pain in my soul. I hope everything will be OK. 

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Unfortunately my mum's tests are very bad. The disease is very advanced and urgent treatment is needed. That's what the doctor said.

 

Diagnosis: advanced multinodular goiter of the thyroid. I really hope that surgery will not be necessary. One of the doctors said it was possible. Mum will still need to see a doctor. She will have to have a course of treatment and then a check-up. Also mum has asthma, disability, high blood pressure, stomach problems. A bouquet of illnesses(

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Sorry, been a bit busy. And then we again had an alarm signal, I could not answer you. Today is another terrible day in Ukraine. Again, many people died, including children. And many wounded.

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Thank you very much for your suggestions. I will do my best. I have health problems due to constant worry and stress. And recently I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling sick, having a panic attack and my body not listening to me well. I thought I was dying and asked God not to take me away. But after a while it got better. That's why I should worry less...

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About Nikitka:

He is 3 years old and he is a very cheerful, intelligent, kind and quick-witted boy. He is our greatest joy in life. He loves cars, nature and animals. He loves to cook with his mother in the kitchen and helps with everything. 

 

What financial donations can help:

   

Since the outbreak oif war, Nikita does not speak much for his age, and has developed a stutter, so he needs to see a doctor (speech therapist, defectologist) to help him speak more. Also, Nikita has started having nervous tics in his body (face, neck, hands). Nikita has also become nervous and cries more often. Because of this sometimes it is necessary to visit a doctor (neurologist) and receive treatment as prescribed by the doctor. 

Unfortunately children see and feel everything and suffer because of the war 😔 .

Nikita needs good nutrition and hygiene products. Nikita eats few vegetables and few fruits, so he needs to take extra vitamins so that he can grow and develop properly. He also needs further medical tests.

Unfortunately, almost all medical care here has to be paid for.

 

Thank you very much for your help and support. May God bless you 🙏💙💛 "

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we think about the war every day, we hear about it, we are afraid. Again there have been reports of explosive devices in buildings (three days in a row) This is how the russians tease us to sow even more panic. And it could be true that one day an explosive device will be found somewhere. As in the case of the live grenades near the children's park. The danger alerts are more frequent and yes, the russians can retaliate and hit anywhere with missiles. They say they have a lot of old missiles that are long overdue for decommissioning. But they are launching them at Ukraine. They still have plenty of different munitions. Both old and new. And nuclear weapons ((

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An air defence missile was shot down today. Hopefully there won't be any more tonight.

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